Money
So, I’ve come to a realization during this past semester: people just really don’t understand it when I say I’m poor. When I say I’m broke or I’m poor, I just really am. I don’t have much money to use, whether it be with me or in my bank account. I know people say “I’m broke. I gotta save money…” ALL THE TIME! I know that already! But I just feel like it’s different with me. Why? Just because I know for a fact that my family isn’t blessed like many other families. We aren’t like your typical Asian-American families. We don’t have fancy cars, a big house, high-paying jobs, nothing like that at all. I live in a small house, one story and a basement. During the summer, the number of people who live in my house can go as high up as 10 people! Craziness…My parent’s don’t really have high-paying jobs. It’s still difficult to manage ALL of us kids’ school tuition, 2 of us being in college, the other 2 in high school still. Not to mention my mom and sister are living in St. Louis with my step-dad who won’t even let my sister come visit us at all. Well, what I’m trying to get at is that people other than Hmong people (no offense) REALLY don’t understand my situation, let alone most every Hmong student’s situation. I’m not trying to say that I want to get rich and everything. It’s just that I can’t do a lot of things that people WANT to do like snowboarding all the time or go out and eating at some pretty cool restaurants. When it comes to hanging out, can we just sit back and chill? That’s all I really want to do. No spending money, no fancy restaurants, no expensive trips. Just sit back, relax, and have fun with friends and family. I know at times people want to go out for special occasions, and I know there are people out there who would love to go but can’t because of financial issues. I always fall under that case. But seriously, who needs money when it comes to hanging out?! Well, I hope this also DOESN’T stop people from making plans about going out and stuff like that. By all means, going out and having fun is fun still. But not ALL the time do people have enough money to do certain things. Ok ok, I really don’t know where I’m going with this right now, I’m just ranting now. But yes, like I was saying earlier, my family doesn’t fall under that “rich Asian-American family” category. Sometimes I wish we had more money, but things don’t happen that way. And yes, I know this too: God doesn’t call those who have, He calls those who do not have. I still find grace through my family’s financial issues, and that’s always a good thing too.
Well, this is about it. This is kind of what’s been going through my mind these past few days. It’s not the ONLY thing, but it’s one of ‘em. There are just some things I just can’t write in a blog ahah. If you want to know, come find me 
brave post.